This is yet another amusing but ultimately pointless attempt to make sense of the world, a place to share curiosities and outrages. That and the occasional movie review.
September 21, 2006
Independence
UPDATE: Alas, 13% of popular vote is not enough to win governor's race (but a very respectable showing for a third party candidate, dontcha think?). I was with ya all the way, Kinky. Oddly I am not saddened by fact that Governor Perry won with less than half of the state's votes. Four legit candidates in the running! I am so not a fan of the pure two-party system.
September 19, 2006
Venting
Do, or do not. There is no try. --Yoda
An article about frustrated teachers' blog postings points to the serious problems associated with venting, especially about one's work and especially in public venues. I'm all for the need to vent from time to time, but I think it's a form of self indulgence. I want to be negative, so I let myself be negative. I want ice cream, so I let myself have ice cream. I think it's possible to vent and have ice cream within healthy bounds, as in the case of a person who is generally self aware, reflective, disciplined. Trouble is, most of us go about our day in an oblivious state. Discipline is often an external force, not internally, consciously acted upon. We pay attention to that which presents itself most forcefully to our consciousness. What is the answer? Like the 12 step approach advises: first acknowledge we have a problem.
If we all said we had a problem, does that in itself become a problem? Isn't acknowledging the problem the first step in coming to a sustainable solution? Maybe we don't actually believe in the possibility of a solution. There goes that negative thinking again. Like I said before, the power of positive thinking is its own reward. Try it.
I have few if any qualms about being a broken record. Am I in denial? I found a few quotes on the subject of repetition. Which of these most resembles my thoughts and actions? Which resembles yours?
Repetition does not transform a lie into a truth. --Franklin D. Roosevelt
The happiness of most people we know is not ruined by great catastrophes or fatal errors, but by the repetition of slowly destructive little things. --Ernest Dimnet
We cannot always control our thoughts, but we can control our words, and repetition impresses the subconscious, and we are then master of the situation. --Florence Scovel Shinn
I had not yet read today's Daily Darma when I wrote the above, but it seems eerily coincidental:
What one thinks or reads is always qualified by the preposition "of," or "about," and does not give us the thing itself. Not mere talk about water, nor the mere sight of a spring, but an actual mouthful of it gives the thirsty complete satisfaction. --D. T. Suzuki, Essays in Zen Buddhism
September 07, 2006
Outnumbered
I found an interesting article about the adapting and regendering, in essence, of female-authored stories by male filmmakers, in particular specific works of Allende, Walker, and Dinesen. The author considers what was and was not included or changed from the books to the movies. Get past the initial lingo and consider the evidence presented and you start to see a very good point. Not all storytelling comes from a single gendered viewpoint, but most movies do and it is a male one.
Next time you watch a movie made by a female director (are you even conscious of a female director?--their names are not often attached to megamovies), consider what if anything is different about the way the story is told. Who is at the center? What complexities and simplicities are ascribed to what sorts of people? What is the nature of the plot? Who wins and loses and what is "won" or "lost"?
In college I took a women's history class with Bettina Aptheker. Fascinating person, great lecturer, amazing office hours experience. Anyway, she taught from the viewpoint of cycles of history, social experiences and identities being the basis of historical record and analysis/discourse rather than war, governance, and economic systems. Finally I was able to put to words the unease I felt in many of my discussions about history with people. I've met many people who profess to loving history, but often times they end up being military or war buffs. I'm not saying this is not history, just that there is something more as well. I felt in college that too often when I said "I'm a history major" people assumed that meant I knew tons about World War I and II and the name of every President. When I became a teacher, the certification exam for social studies focused on these exact things as well, which frustrated me to say the least. My point comes to this: Not all of history is about what primarily involved men.
I am not for radical genderism of any kind. This being said, I would argue we have in many ways lived in a radical male-ist or phallocentric world for quite a while, and some think a tilt in the other direction is all that can alleviate the strife that came with phallocentric living. I feel radicalism in any form is unhealthy for the masses. Going full-tilt gynocentric does not help the masses either. Um, how about balance? Like, honoring all genders, honoring people as people, with male/female parts hormones, drives, frailties. What is so wrong with being human?!?! But I digress...
I disagree with the author of the piece which started this whole posting. She seems to villify male directors for ruining works of feminine genius. The male director's take is simply another version. Another man might give a different spin (though averages might tell us the spin would fall within a fairly narrow range, anyway...). A woman might have done similar to the man or not (dominant forces in movie making industry might determine part of this, anyway...). What matters is that there is a thoughtful version, whatever the particular gender identity.
I would argue that the fact of people looking to escape more through over-hyped, under-developed movies and television than through literature, or in either case avoiding anything not well pre-chewed, is more of a problem than there being multiple versions of a single story. There are always other views, and they are worthy. Being the most common or most popular or most familiar does not mean something is superior.
I could go on and on; I will not, not today at least. Turns out my soap box appeared benath my feet while I was talking. I now step down and give someone else a turn. Thank you for your time.
September 04, 2006
Momentum
Democracy does not, in my mind, mean turning on a dime. There is nothing in human social systems to suggest any positive, productive change can occur instantaneously. I was brought to this thought by another blogger's post on the subject of democracy. I especially enjoyed the last paragraph. Anyway, it got me thinking about the bad things that happen in our country and the responsibility we as citizens in a representative-democratic state have to address the bad things.
In most cases conscious attempts at change occur in response to perceived problems and crises. When things go well, if we take note of them as true successes, then we might change only insofar as we slack off in effort, which itself produces a change of some kind. If we took note of a success and kept doing what we had been doing, and success continued, we might fail to see it as success anymore. It disappears, leaving behind a sense, at best, of complacent comfort, and at worst stagnation and decay. Ironic, isn't it?
You can't be neutral on a moving train. --Noam Chomsky
Anyway, I do not believe democracy is about success and failure but about response. (The subject of failure and democracy is intriguing though, and I found several interesting posts on the subject: first, second, and third.) The actions and reactions of millions of individuals and groups form an often unconscious collective, one that reinforces and reinvents the system, the society. People are unbelievably powerful, even as we feel individually anything from conceit to helplessness. Whatever I feel individually, I am contributing to a larger feeling in society as a whole. My malaise, my diffidence, my enthusiasm, they feed into and off of the feelings of all those with whom I have contact. So everything begins in some sense with me (and you). Over our feelings we have some control. More important is what we act upon, as over this we have considerable control. Whatever I act upon or react to individually, I am contributing to a larger body of action, influencing more directly the world around me.
I am not under any orders to make the world a better place. --Troy Dyer, in Reality Bites
Democracy is not about turning on a dime. Democracy is about the collective will of all its participants, the sum of individual actions and beliefs. Democracy begins with me, and with you, as does any social construct. The government, the society, are ours for the influencing. We do so whether we intend to or not. So what influence are you having right now? Is it a positive influence?
If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice. -- Rush, from the song "Freewill"
Go do something good. You'll feel better, I promise.
August 29, 2006
Outlook
Update: Crankiness turned out to be indicator of looming physical illness. Note to self when cranky again--stay home and avoid people.
August 28, 2006
Guts
August 24, 2006
Downgrading
"It's like an amicable divorce," he said. "The legal status has changed but the person really hasn't. It's just single again."
The IAU made it official. The news of Pluto's demotion from planetary status has deeply saddened me. Indeed I am in deep denial. I shall refuse all access to my old reference books or science texts for fear that someone will cross out the 9 and put an 8. [Okay, not that anyone is clamoring for access.] Next thing you know, we'll be reading about how the entering freshman class has never known anything but 8 planets. Sigh.
Pluto, 1930-2006
This enigmatic orbital oddity died this week at the age of 76. Address condolences to International Astronomical Union. Donations in lieu of flowers to neighborhood stargazing group.
Farewell, Pluto. I hardly knew ya, but you seemed like a nice planet. Rest in peace.
August 23, 2006
Quotability
We're having a Mexican fiesta themed lunch at work next week. Denisse (who was, by the way, born in Mexico) described a time when she was forced to wear her co-worker's fifth grade daughter's traditional Mexican dress and dance during a similarly themed luncheon. She wished not to repeat that experience, but thought other costumes might be fun. Then she recalled a Mexican costume she had worn proudly to another function: revolutionary. The only problem, she was told...
You can't take that rifle into church.
Denisse is delightfully fascinated by the Body Worlds exhibit which has been in Houston these last few months. I realized after the fact that she was referring to the plastination process at the heart of this exhibit when she told a co-worker this morning...
If you're going to have an abortion, you might as well donate it to science.
Indeed.
Sept 6: I heard some loud, aggressive alternative rock music emanating from Denisse's office today. I commented that I did not picture her as being a fan of, then I paused. "Head banging?" she finished the thought for me, and then went on to say...
You just have not met all my personalities yet.
Oct 25: Denisse paused as we were chatting and I thought she might have been leaving space for an implied profanity. It struck me that I never heard her swear, but that she might have that tendency, so I asked if that was the case. Her reply was affirmative. She added, without any prompt from me,...
I did not start cursing or drinking until I was married.Her husband must be so proud. :)
August 22, 2006
Romantics
Jane Austen fans have created a glut of writing about, inspired by, and in critical support of the various novels, but Pride and Prejudice is the most hotly debated. [My choice of word there is quite appropriate given the, um, heat some fans have post facto ascribed to the novel's hero and heroine. You should see what some people have written about their feelings toward the Mr. Darcy pond diving scene in the BBC edition, and ensuing delight with Colin Firth. Oh my.] Anyway, I'm not looking into this fanfiction stuff for passionate alternatives to the confined manners portrayed in the original. I'm just enjoying the endless variations on a relatively simple story that bring hundreds, nay thousands or millions, of people together. It's a nice connection, wouldn't you agree?
[I can picture David rolling his eyes at all this, but then, I know how he reacted to the ending of the miniseries....]
Torrents
The soaking through occurred almost instantly. The usual respite that comes with tree coverage had instead turned to collection raindrops. [What is the opposite in size of a droplet? Mere drops would not seem adequate for this rainfall.] Usually there are shallow, passable lanes through the sidewalks when it rains, but not today. Water came from all sides, as pools of it bounced up at me with every step. The warm water sloshing through my seen-better-days shoes reminded me of wading into tropical shores. I worried briefly about the books in my backpack until the droplets on my eyelashes made it difficult to see, thus distracting me. I smiled at fellow wet people, and none of them apepared any more concerned than I. I figured some drivers would take pity and allow easy crossing of the street. Maybe they too were blinded by the downpour, but either way they did not slow. By the time I made it to the parking lot I was hopping through puddles and reveling in my soakedness. A half mile down the road and all was dry--outside. Localized rainfall indeed.
August 20, 2006
Production
In my own production news, the book I was working on is printed and out there. You won't find it at your local chain bookshop, or even a specialty one, but it's printed and it has my name on the cover. Okay I'm "just" an editor, one of three, and it's a narrow subject with narrow geographic focus, but STILL. Tres exciting. I might even share a copy with you if you ask nicely. :)
August 16, 2006
Swearing
For fun I looked up the military oaths. Can an atheist join the military? Does this oath give equal power to the President as to the Constitution? What is the operational definition of "enemy"?
The Oath of Enlistment (for enlistees): "I, _____, do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; and that I will obey the orders of the President of the United States and the orders of the officers appointed over me, according to regulations and the Uniform Code of Military Justice. So help me God."
The Oath of Office (for officers): "I, _____ (SSAN), having been appointed an officer in the Army of the United States, as indicated above in the grade of _____ do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign or domestic, that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; that I take this obligation freely, without any mental reservations or purpose of evasion; and that I will well and faithfully discharge the duties of the office upon which I am about to enter; So help me God."
August 15, 2006
Attitude
Is it possible for anyone to take pride in something that she feels is owed to her or that she feels is deserved? How do we learn to take pride in our actions and efforts? Is it not an osmotic thing, something absorbed from surrounding attitudes and reinforcements? So, what do you do that reinforces positive attitudes about hard work, selflessness, and pride above all in a job well done, rather than material or social rewards? Conversely, what do you expect from or complain about in others?
I like what New Hope Now has to say about perception of problems. When you believe something can be done or that something positive can happen, the problem seems less, well, problematic. Your sense of it changed and therefore the problem diminished in your mind. And ultimately, all problems are in our minds. The site goes on to list some points to ponder about your feelings toward a problem, such as reminders that we contribute to the problems we feel, and that problems are temporary. Good reminders, I think. Facing the music and accepting any level of responsibility, that's a lot tougher. But seriously, what have you got to lose? Maybe some problems, how does that sound?
And while I'm on the subject yet again of attitude, ask yourself, what is wrong with having a positive attitude? Does being negative actually make you feel good? So why hold on to the negativity? Does feeling good make you less productive? Does looking on the bright side mean you are weak? If you think positively, will you feel better? Why do we avoid feeling good?
Okay, lastly, just because I acknowledge my role in problems and feel good about myself does not mean I am justified in ignoring or furthering those problems. Unless or until I do something to remedy the problem, I am not helping anyone, myself included. Which brings me back to taking pride in one's actions. Do what is right because it feels good to do so. I hate the corporatization of this message, but man is it right: Just do it.
I'll discuss the pitfalls and personal experience with poor self discipline another day. Smile. Life is good. Or as Eric Idle sings...
If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
I thank you for your time. :)
August 11, 2006
Placement
[As Tara points out, the blog and Mel rant have disappeared. They were last seen at http://petersmikulas.blogspot.com. It is sad when funny things just, poof, disappear.]
[Correction: it's Peter Mikulas not Smikulas; this correction does not change fact of site being gone.]
Thanks to nextblogging I have found my next hobby and blog idea--now that's nextblogging! There are lots of people who take a daily photo in the city where they live then post to a photo-blog site. Some are more artsy or exotic than others, there are bunches in Europe, and there are a few rather normal cities included. I notice Houston is not covered yet.
August 10, 2006
Visuals
August 08, 2006
Whirlwind
August 05, 2006
August 04, 2006
News
Hatred never ceases through hatred, but hatred ceases by love alone.
I heard on the radio yesterday a commentator describing a hate crime in the US as "terrorism" (this term was key) because the perpetrator was Muslim. He went on to point out how this was the sixth such incident since September 11. He seemed to want listeners to be outraged over the lack of media attention to numerous domestic terrorist acts. I wanted to call him and ask about the daily hate crimes--all meant to instill terror--committed against gays, ethnic groups (or any other than self), and all sorts of average every day Americans, homegrown and fitting the usual look and religious predilections of US citizens. Why should I be up in arms about one horrible incident more than another? Is there any violence or hatred that is justified? Is it morally possible to choose one set of haters or killers over another?
Zippy usually helps me smile even when talking about unhappy things. Today even Zippy seems a bit sad.
Thank goodness for the Buddhist Peace Fellowship and others who acknowledge with compassion the pain and hurt but continue to hope and rally for peace.
Or listen to the Black Eyed Peas' Where is the Love, opening lyrics included here for your contemplation:
What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all
August 03, 2006
Technology
Notes to Self
The oil change man--Brian?--will never forget our having run into each other in the middle of nowhere during Rita evacuation. It's really very sweet, but I've made a mental note: Must gather witty hurricane-evacuation comments before going to oil change place.
Fast food isn't necessarily fast. Drive up window duty might be punishment for naughty not-so-fast food workers.
Dining alone is not pitiful but restaurant staff will look at you like it is. Bring a good juicy book to keep mind off the staring.
August 02, 2006
Recommended
Update: Episode on atheist temporarily living with fundamentalist Christian family was very frustrating to me. How can any individual represent what is not actually a coherent community of people? There is nothing that unifies atheists other than a conscious rejection of "God". I felt bad for all involved in this episode.
Episode on Muslims in America was pretty interesting, though again frustrating. The Christian guy had a very hard time, believing he was somehow going against his belief in Jesus and "God" to participate in Muslim prayer of any kind. And yet he had agreed to participate in exactly that. It reminded me of a Zen lesson on overfull cups of beliefs. The guy's difficulties seemed largely rooted in a placement mismatch with his religious teachers/guides. He eventually ended up with someone who could help him understand a bit better, which redeemed the episode for me.
Final episode finds Spurlock himself returning to the activities of his show as he puts himself in jail. I'm certainly biased, well down the road of beliefs/lessons he presents about the prison industrial complex and lack of rehabilitation in so-called penitentiaries, yet I still think the episode would be of interest to anyone out there with a pulse. Good stuff. Even the questionable episodes force you to think about the world.
Experience
All in all, a pretty good few weeks.
July 14, 2006
Beat
Countdown
Normally a source of relief, I have developed a fear of my To Do list. Yes, busy times are upon me again. Amazing how crunch periods come in waves and right before trips or fun plans. Do the trips cause the crunch or does the crunch of things to do bring about the trip? Shh, I think I know the answer. As a bit of an escape I shall recount some facts in my life:
Okay, counting is no longer soothing me. Gotta go....
PS Happy Bastille Day.
July 13, 2006
Slideshow
July 11, 2006
Newsworthiness
Vote now, which of the above is the story of the day? (Warning: Your vote may reveal deep insights into your priorities.)
July 10, 2006
Pirates
MOVIE REVIEW
I went in with a headache, I came out with the same, but during The Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest I was unaware of any internal pounding. There was plenty external, as the movie is full of swashbuckling fights, each carefully staged to elicit laughter and some suspense. In this the second movie we find Will Turner and his beloved Elizabeth Swann again separated and caught up in dangerous adventures that take them into the world of pirates and the undead. Captain Jack Sparrow seems to be off his game in the beginning but soon is up to his old amusing tricks. Sparrow's main concern is a rather large debt owed to one Davy Jones, someone who both he and Will would like to see gone. (As an aside, why was this not called "Davy Jones' Locker"?) There's an island of cannibals, a boat full of aqualife-sailors, and the Kracken to deal with along the way.
Dead Man's Chest is a fun tropical summer flick and pretty well plotted out. (Not that there aren't some head scratching moments. Sparrow's story was strangely disjointed and I am hoping it comes around in the third film.) Though you could have seen the first movie without moving forward with the second, there is no point seeing this second if you haven't seen the first and are not planning on seeing the third (Got all that?). The movie brings back old favorites in the form of characters, scenery, and action, and introduces some new players for part 3.
Though plenty of fun, the movie is a tad long at moments. How much can really be resolved in a middle story, which is about building up the problems? There's even an unsurprisingly dramatic "end" and a bit of a love triangle. It's like in Empire--will Han Solo come out of the deep freeze? Will love and family conquer all? I think we all know the answers. So this movie is not about the suspense, it's about the ride. And don't forget, these movies were based on a ride.
July 07, 2006
Exposed
Vintage
Materialism
July 03, 2006
Twofer
MOVIE REVIEW
The Devil Wears Prada stars Meryl Streep, Anne Hathaway, and Stanley Tucci in a drama about fashion publishing and, presumably, the pitfalls of selling out. Somehow the integrity-laden Andy/Andrea (Hathaway) ends up as second assistant to one of the most powerful people in publishing, the head of Runway magazine, Miranda (Streep). Andy knows nothing of fashion and doesn't care to. Miranda takes a chance on this bright eyed college grad in spite of the misgivings of the entire staff. Andy must fetch Starbucks, hang coats, and put up with endless comments about her wardrobe and size (a 6, oh dear). But Andy puts up with all of this because, as she is told by the first assistant, she could land any job in publishing she wants if she sticks it out for a year with Miranda. That is, we are led to believe, a big if. Does Andy make it? Is Miranda the devil? Will Andy's friends be around to see her make it?
The movie is visually lovely, charming in parts, and makes a clear point. It's nice and harmless. Streep's white hair and ever-calm voice are perfect. The supporting parts are well cast; the boyfriend is adorably, realistically faithful. However, story development was slow, drama and intrigue were lacking (mainly in the first half), and sympathy fairly low for the protagonist. I didn't especially care if Andy made it through happily. The source of my malaise wasn't the acting and it wasn't the wardrobe or sets (lovely, ah Paris). It was definitely the pace and script. I feel like I, the casual viewer, could have offered several obvious improvements and made this a deliciously fun drama. Alas, it is not to be.

